I Belong to..

I had nothing to say
and I get lost in the nothingness inside of me (I was confused)
and I live it all out to find, but Im not the only person with these things in mind
(inside of me)
but all that they can see the words revealed
is the only real thing that I got left to feel (nothing to lose)
just stuck hollow and alone
and the fault is my own and the fault is my own

I wanna heal I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain Ive felt so long.
erase all the pain til its gone
I wanna heal I wanna feel like Im close to something real.
I wanna find something Ive wanted all along
somewhere I belong

and I got nothing to say. I cant believe I didnt fall right down on my face
(I was confused)
look at everywhere only to find.
it is not the way I had imagined it all in my mind.
(so what am I)
what do I have but negativity
cause I cant trust no one by the way everyone is looking at me
(nothing to lose)
nothing to gain Im hollow and alone
and the fault is my own
and the fault is my own

I will never know myself until I do this on my own
cause I will never feel anything else until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything til I break away from me
I will break away. I ll find myself today

~Somewhere I Belong - Linkin Park



The other night, I feel like tired of running and seeking for help, shelter, or whatever it is. And I woke up the next morning, laughing hard to myself (and somehow there are also tears along the laugh), realizing that I belong nowhere. There I was, just sit back in that couch, wounded, alone, nowhere to go, no one to hold, just there.

But then I looked into myself, and realized that I was looking in the wrong directions. It's all there, in me. My life, my love, my everything, it's there, in me, with him.

That instant, I knew where I belong. With him.

Love, wait for me..
I am coming to you, soon..
As I breath, I knew I'm getting closer to you..
And in every breath, being with you is my only wish..
Dear God, I beg You please.. Let me be with him..