Auto Sabotage

For the past (more than) couple months, I was always uttering my intention to die, having no more will to live, and so on. Someone records all that and makes it happen.

Who is it ? Me.
Yeah, me, myself and I. Its my subconscious to be exact.

I wasn't aware til I got hospitalized the other day. I wasn't even able to held my head up. Aching all over my body, even sleeping was painful.

I was hospitalized in the afternoon, got some IV and some painkiller. Later on that day, I finally realized that this is my subconscious speaking. All that death wishes is finally take form. Auto sabotage.