11.06.2010

Boxes of Life


We are all have our metaphores in our own lives.

For example, sometimes I find myself picturing my life time line as waves with me riding it in my own surf board.

But this time, I would like to write about my 'boxes'. My boxes of life. I pictured my life has so many boxes. Each contains certain memories of one phase of my life. Phase of relationships, phase of works, phase of family, and so many other phases. Some I managed to be kept deep down inside my heart, but some still in the surface, cause the phase is not over yet and/or I'm not letting it go due to some reasons.

Interestingly, I just found out that I am part of other's boxes. Yes. You all would probably thinking now, where the hell were you all these times ?. Well, I guess, I just got here :).

Few weeks ago, friend of mine, well we were sort of close back then, told me that I was in his past box, which he, sometimes, still open it and recalling those memories. Often comparing to what he has in this present time. Umm.. Frankly speaking, I can't comment on that. And I didn't.

Then not a while ago, I realized something on conversations I have with my other friend. He always use this future tense while he talks about us. 'will', 'let see', 'want to' and every future modal verb words are always there, in our conversations. All these times, I was not realizing this pattern. Until that moment. When he typed 'you will.'. There it was. His future box of his life, where he put me in. I have some comments on this, but the time isn't due yet to bring this up.

I never really put a thought about where others put me in their box. But these 2 experiences made me think. Because my boxes about these 2 phases of relationship is still in the surface.

Its a total freedom of mine and also of theirs where to put these interactions and memories to which box in my life and in their lives.

But sometimes, these interactions are not only mere interactions. Sometimes there are hopes, expectations, efforts and everything that could possibly follows an interaction. When we found out that the phase we share is not belong to the same box (in terms of time wise), what do we do ? What will happen ?

:)

That's what happened to me.
All I can do is smile.

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