Bit by Bit, Breath by Breath

When everything seems so far
When everything blurring before your eyes
When hope seems fades away
When you have none but yourself

Stop! And listen..

Every bit of your body
Every beat of your heart
Every pulse of your brain
In every breath you take

There’s hope within you
There’s strength within you
There’s a whole You
Steady and ready to take on every single thing in this world

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A slight description about my quotation on ‘bit by bit, breath by breath’. Sometimes I use that quotation just to encourage myself to endure this pain I have.

But actually ‘bit by bit, breath by breath’ is always be my ‘attitude’. On every angle, every level of my life.

As far as I remember, this bit by bit attitude was pushed on me by a condition. When I was on junior high, I had an accident, fell from a motorcycle and I bumped my head on the road block. No fracture, just a brain concussion. And I can never be 100% again.

So, after a week hospitalized, I was pushed to accept my ‘slow’ condition. Start every activity on slow mode, from getting up in the morning until going back to bed in the night. Including dealing with my own head, which is the hardest part cause I have a ‘hard head’ a.k.a stubborn. The speed of my mind often not match with the speed of my body. And that’s so damn frustrating. And not only that, the continuously buzz on my head is also frustrating.

That’s the start of the bit by bit attitude. I need to have a grip. And the first lesson I learn during the process was that I can’t have the grip outside me. So, I decided to have grip inside me, which is my breath. It’s not that easy actually to came up with that decision. Cause when you feel sick, ill or pain, most of the time, you would want to ‘complain’. You would want to have someone there, just to be there, wouldn’t you ?

But then again, I need to learn my lesson. And yes, I learnt well. So this bit by bit attitude is built in me, slowly but sure.

And when I had another brain concussion couple years later, I knew what lies ahead me. Again, it was not easy. It’s still not easy. But like I said, bit by bit, breath by breath, and you will find the whole You, who’s steady and ready to take on every single thing in this world.

Like Uncle Bob Marley (PS. Don’t try to find any resemblance between me and my uncle :P) sang in ‘Redemption Song’,

Emancipate yourselves from mental slavery;
None but ourselves can free our minds.
Have no fear for atomic energy,
'Cause none of them can stop the time.

Have no fear indeed. And none can free our minds but ourselves, meaning (at least for me) we got none, but ourselves. So, own up yourself, own up ourselves, bit by bit, breath by breath, and the world is ours for the taken.