Hardly Simple, Simply Hard

Being simple is hard. Yet life is simple. Being hard is simple. Yet life is hard.
What the hell am I talking about ? Intention, especially hidden intention.


I would call it shrimp, taken from proverb 'ada udang di balik batu'.

Now, I can only mention one person, who has no 'shrimp' in our relationship. We'd meet as easy as we'd separate. We'd gain as much as the other gains. We'd lose as much as the other loses. We'd share as much as the other shares. Get along but still in our own path.

While with others, I am done guessing and experiencing surprises. 'Shrimp' surprises. And usually it's not a good 'shrimp'.

What is it with people and hidden intentions ? Call me naive, call me a hypocrite, but I just can't see the point of having 'shrimp' on any relationship.

I am not-so-bad liar. I can easily lied to my mother, told her I went to climb a mountain while actually I went to Jakarta to watch Linkin Park's concert. Yes, I lied, so many times. But never hidden intention.

You may thought its the same thing, lies and hidden intention. I think its not the same thing.

Hidden intentions are much more cruel than lies. Lies hurt you once. Once the truth surfaced, no more problems (maybe troubleshooting is needed). But hidden intentions hurt you more than once. And after the 'shrimp' surfaced, you'll lose your 'appetite'.

And not only it hurts to have a hidden intention on, but it also complicates life. Its like a magnetic field screwing your life compass. Your relationship and everything in it is hardly left in one piece. Its just sad, trust me.

But lately, everyone seems to have a 'shrimp' on me. And life automatically become hardly simple. And I have to handle it with a simply hard way. Just to make life simple again.

Fiuhh, can I just stay away from these 'shrimps' ?