Just Some Things

That (mid)night, as my brain craved for 'sate', this piece of mind crossed over my head. And since I was with a friend, I can't help to share my craving and that piece of mind.

So I shared, asked for more precise.
Why do (good and/or bad) things happen to people ?

My friend gave a perspective with an analogy of 'exit way'. Let's say this world is an airport. With so many passangers come and go, maybe even stay for a while like in that movie, The Terminal. And suddenly the emergency alarm blares. What should they do ? What would you do ?

Of course first reaction, mostly, is panic. And then logic set in to find an exit way.

Here, my friend pointed out, what the 'regular' people would do. They would first try to find the exit sign and the follow it to the exit way. But some other people might choose another way, e.g breaking the windows, doors, etc. And according to my friend, these people are 'unlogical', freaks so to say, and it (might be) caused by an 'ego' (or material spiritualism in Trungpa's language).

I can't help noticing the sarcasm arose while the 'ego' word surfaced.

Well, my friend nailed it! Sarcasm hit the target right on the head. Me :)

That question was over-assumed. I merely asking, why ? And I got the 'ego' bullet. Hahaha..

But I can totally understand that perspective, considering what I've done recently (breaking the window would be so lame compare to what I've done). And somehow that question was (over)assumed as my 'free pass' to all the wrongs that I've done, so I can get free from the punishments that I deserved.

And not just shot the 'ego' bullet, the perspective added some 'size'.

When we have that kind of guts to break the windows, we should use it for 'big' things instead of 'small' things. Well well.. Size does matter, doesn't it ? ;)

I don't know which one 'lit' me up that night, the 'sate kambing' or the 2 bullets of 'ego' and 'size' that were shot right on between my eyes.

Lemme get back to my simple question.
Why do (good and/or bad) things happen to people ?

I was hoping Uncle Karma to show up. Cause I would definitely go buddy buddy with him (I love Uncle Karma so much). And Uncle Karma was indeed my one of aiming points. But don't get me wrong. This is my Uncle Karma we're talking about, not just any other karma.

If only my oral question could be displayed as my written question above, maybe my friend would noticed the open-close brackets in 'good and/or bad' words. And also the use of 'and/or'.

As I've been buddy buddy with Uncle Karma all these years, all these lives, he is a swell guy. Always have been and always will be. How could he not ? He would return you favor, exact and precise, no more no less. Even if you don't ask for it, he would give it to you anyway. Swell, isn't he ?

That's why I put the brackets and the 'and/or' there.

Good, bad, white, black, in between are labels we got from this world. Frankly speaking, I am highly convinced that Uncle Karma doesn't give a damn shit about those labels. No matter in what label you are, he is still a swell guy whom will always return your favor, exact and precise, no more no less.

So, my answer to that why question is because it's time to say hello to Uncle Karma. And by saying hello is to serve him the best of our ability despite how wrecked our houses might be.

When I was made aware of the presence of my most loved one, I couldn't describe that feeling. And I had (and still have) faith that the presence of my most loved one was meant to be, meant to something. But the world, my world sees it differently. Labels are pasted upon me and my precious. It also addresses bunch of rules on us. And I gave up which is not the best ability that I should presented to Uncle Karma.

Again, such a swell guy Uncle Karma is, he just smiles at me and stays on my doorstep. Now I just have to put my best abilities together to welcome him in my days and nights after I gave up. Though so far, tears and end-to be with my precious wishes are my best I can come up with.

Welcoming Uncle Karma needs guts. Just like the guts to break the window. And it's not an ego. I call it responsibility. Simple, is it not ?

Then the 'size' bullet came up.

I have to admit, I almost choked on my 'sate' when the 'size' came up since laughing would be inappropriate. And frankly speaking, that my friend came up with 'size', I was most surprised. Never thought that kind of thought could come across our friendship cause by 'size'-ing my question is indirectly 'size'-ing me, and of course I would definitely be fitted in the small size (not that I'm offended, since I don't do 'size'-ing to anyone and/or anything).

As in my perspective of 'size'-ing, none is big nor small. All is equally important, in(ter)correlated, and interconnected, just need to add priority scales, shared responsibilities, and full skilled troubleshooting.

One act or decision from one man in this world is influenced by the world around and at the same time will change the world. One man's act is a change to the world. And if the guts is not supposed to use on 'small' things, how are 'big' things even possible ?

And that night ended up in a clarity on how much we are apart on certain point of views. But no problem, that’s what friends are for, right ? We may look at the same diamond, but diamond has many facets. We might be able to see few facets, but friends show us the other facets.

Things are just some things. Things happened, happening, and will keep happen. It’s not the bad or the good part that is important. But how we handle things and do we have enough guts to handle it properly, that’s what most important. Or in my words, welcoming Uncle Karma with attitude and guts.



Then again, there will be no beautiful lights without darkness. :)